the ticking

what is this ticking?

is it inside my head?

is telling the time?

or counting down till i’m dead?

maybe it’s a bomb

it’s about to explode

set up by my own self esteem

i created this, it’s my own code

a code i can’t break

so the bomb will go off

who knows when

and no one knows why

but it’ll go off

because when the pressure builds up

the bomb won’t take it anymore

it’ll be done taking your shit

it’s so done.

maybe when it’ll goes off

it won’t be so bad

yea, tell that to the families that lost loved ones in the missouri school shooting

tell them it was something different

tell them that he was crazy

tell them that he was insane

screwed up upstairs

you know what

maybe you’re right

maybe it’s true

but maybe he didn’t get enough light in his life

maybe it was just a little too dark.

i’m not justifying any of his actions

no, i’m simply simplifying the situation for you to maybe understand

he had no reason?

he had reasons.

a high school full of reasons.

but does that justify what he did?

does that justify

that he killed a school full of kids?!

NO.

i’m simply asking you to understand

he didn’t have a plan

and in the grand scheme of things he ran out of life

life to breath and life to give

and for someone to be so messed up from other people to feel that they need to take someone elses life away is fucked UP.

so look at him

as an example

look at this when the world seems too dark to carry on

at the pain it caused.

at the destruction

we should create

and not date

at such a young age

cause it’s destructive

that mans bomb did blow up.

he had the code to shut it off

but he denied it and chose to destroy instead

he denied it and chose to kill to harm and to destroy instead

we have two options here

we have two options in this life

to create and build up

or

to destroy and tear down

i know you’re not feeling alright

you weren’t yesterday

and you aren’t tonight.

but don’t choose the ticking path

the path with the explosive end

choose the other road

choose life, friend.