Future

what is this?

this isn’t what i’m used to

this isn’t me

atleast.. it didn’t used to be

i’m scared of my future

i’m not excited.

i’m not looking forward to it

i just want it to stay now forever

or to skip the next two years

because these next two years?

sound terrible now

i used to look forward to it

i used to want to grow up

now i have something to lose

and it’s not just any little thing

it’s my everything

it’s my joy and my peace

and my laughter and happiness

its sounds like pressure on you

i’m sorry. but it’s true

I can’t stop these feelings

and i’m sick of avoiding them