cONfuseD

why do i torture myself

with things that i can’t control

with things that drive me

to the point of destruction in my brain

God i know you can help

you've shown me your power

i believe you can help me

but i don’t know if i want all of it gone…

selfishness? protectiveness?.... jealousness?

what even is the difference between these?

is one better than another?

are any of them bad?

i need your help.

the music doesn't help anymore

the music, has made me numb.

I’M DONE WITH BEING NUMB

i am so done.